One Year Ago
I year ago today, I was seeking God's answers to questions I had. Was I supposed to be serving at the church I was serving in? Was I supposed to be in ministry even? What did God want me to do? I had lots of questions, and I sought God earnestly, daily. During this time, God was very quiet - it was, as I have heard it put, a Dark Night for my Soul. There was frustration on my end because I wanted to do what God wanted me to do - I truly was not looking for my own agenda. I examined my life to see if there was anything keeping our relationship on hold, some secret hidden sin. Still God was quiet. Yet even in His silence, I felt His presence in my life. It was very cool and very strange at the same time.
Then a year ago today, I read a devotional that rocked me. It was about spiritual dejection - boy that was me!
And then this statement:
"Spiritual lust causes me to demand an answer from God, instead of seeking God Himself who gives the answer."
and:
"The purpose of prayer is that we get ahold of God, not the answer."
I was at a crossroad in my personal walk with Christ as well as my ministerial life. These words helped me to change my focus and prayers.
I find it interesting that a year later, I am involved in another crossroad. Yet my past experience has shown me that God answers my concerns, only in His timing and in His way. But these final words help me to focus on His answers:
"If we will only obey, and do the task that He has placed closest to us, we will see Him."
Then a year ago today, I read a devotional that rocked me. It was about spiritual dejection - boy that was me!
And then this statement:
"Spiritual lust causes me to demand an answer from God, instead of seeking God Himself who gives the answer."
and:
"The purpose of prayer is that we get ahold of God, not the answer."
I was at a crossroad in my personal walk with Christ as well as my ministerial life. These words helped me to change my focus and prayers.
I find it interesting that a year later, I am involved in another crossroad. Yet my past experience has shown me that God answers my concerns, only in His timing and in His way. But these final words help me to focus on His answers:
"If we will only obey, and do the task that He has placed closest to us, we will see Him."